I’ve been so stressed: whether it’s in my many jobs, relationships or daily life. I have to pretend that “I’m okay.” It’s difficult to overcome. It’s difficult to face these problems.

When I was 14, I had an accident. I lost an entire day. I did not know. “What was going on?” “Why did I wake up in the hospital?” There were so many questions inside me. 

I actually did not remember anything, until the doctor asked me some questions to calm me down. My memory was just “bleeding.” 

I bled so much in the accident. My doctor tried talking to me to make sure that I did not forget everything that happened.

I felt weird about my pain. I remember looking at myself in the mirror and yelling “OMG! What is wrong with my face?”

My feelings turned entirely upside down just because I did not look like what I was before the accident. 

I was totally upset and stressed. I did not accept who I was. I was so pretty and gorgeous before, until this happened. It was hurtful and painful. I cried, worried and lonely…More than anything, this made me most embarrassed.

To be honest, I felt extremely scared of the hospital, where illness and problems are around. I wanted to be free, healthy, beautiful and strong. It hurt. 

At that time, my school had a camping trip but I could be there only for 15 minutes. My dad took me there to say hello to friends but I had to go back home with him to drink medicine and go to bed early. 

When I went back to school, after a few weeks from healing at home, some of my friends in my school just laughed at me. I looked ugly.

Full of scratches on my body and my face, I could not move my body like the way I wanted. I wanted to be able to dance. 

I had performed a lot starting from when I was 5 years old. In primary school, high school, and college…I found dancing is a strong passion. I love dancing, usually looking at myself in the mirror, opening my favorite music, and then dancing in my own style, the way that makes me happy.

From 21-23, I struggled with jobs, relationships, and family; learning how to be independent after graduating. 

I had danced in bars, partying, having fun with my friends. I spent so much time doing that, until I realized more that it’s not a healthy way to live. Sometimes it is ok, but the environment determines everything.

I had so many bad habits for a few years (drinking, smoking, headaches, hangovers...). It just makes me temporarily happy. 

Then one day, I woke up and asked myself a question “What is most important in my life?” Achieving healthy and good habits. This is most important.

I challenged myself for about 1.5 years, and I love being healthy, staying strong and independent.

Honestly, I’m a hard-working person and a sensitive human. 

I’ve been working a lot but at some points I forget to eat at the right time, need to drink more water, or miss daily exercise. Then I get stressed. I can feel negative and not love myself enough. In these moments, I just turn on the music, dancing in my room. I feel so much better. 

It’s fun in my room, but I wish I could dance with a group of people in a healthy way. It will be happier and more positive. “NO PAIN, NO GAIN.”

One day, I surfed the net and I saw Dork Dancing. 

I was really interested in this event and so excited to join this group. Dork Dancing would help my dancing wish come true!

I am such a social butterfly. I want to connect with people and make more friends. 

Why don’t I join Dork Dancing? 

My first time I joined Dork Dancing on the beach. I spread good energy to people, and it comes back to me.

Once lockdown started, I joined dork dancing online many times. I had more time so I could come to the events more frequently. Although I was again in my room, I was with others. It helped during lockdown, with exercise & fun, but I am looking forward to returning to the beach.

I’m grateful to be there, becoming a #dorkdancer. I love the atmosphere there that surrounds me, with positive attitudes. I think here I have found a home.

Thank you Ethan for creating this group, bringing people together and adding happiness whenever the Dork Dancing takes place.